Half of me is mad and furious at myself for just letting go and giving up
& the other half of me is just sad and upset wishing I kept fighting.
Ah.. /:
June 2011
<3
Her: Bye.
Me: Bye.
*Hangs up*
*I call her back a few seconds later*
Her: Hello?
Me: I forgot.. Uhh.. I love you!
Her: Haha, I love you too!
Me: Okay, bye babe!
Her: Bye babe!
*Hangs up*
*I call her back again*
Her: Hellllllooo?
Me: I forgot something else .. I uh .. Miss you.
Her: Haha, I miss you too.
Me: Okay, bye!
Her: Bye.
*Hangs up*
*I call back one more time*
Me: One more thing, I promise.
Her: Whaaaaaaaaat?
Me: You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me.
Her: We’ll … Thank you.
Me: Whaaaaaat?!
Her: Thank you.
Me: For what?
Her: For giving me another chance.
Me: Well.. I really wanted this.
Her: You’re so cute!
Me: I love you babe!
Her: I love you too, now go shower!
Me: Okay!
*Hangs up*
>-<
I wonder what's going through your head right now.
you say you miss me
But you only miss me because youre lonley. Cause the person you liked or loved hurt you & you come running back to me and saying you “miss me”.. but the fact of the matter is i miss you too, but the only difference is that i actually mean it, not just saying it
Just forget it.
Forget everything. Might as well, just put on this smile and hope for the better. Keep looking ahead, and not look back. Forget the pain, and tears, and just hold on to the memories that actually meant something to you. If anything was really meant to be, it’ll eventually happen. Takes time, I’m starting to just accept the fact that I lost. Oh well, better to accept it through tears rather than get myself bleeding thinking I’m not good enough. Right?
don't say sorry for talking about your feelings. that's what tumbler is for, venting about how you feel.
That’s true.. Hm.
Phew.
Okay, I’m good [:
Sorry for the spam of my feelings. T-T
Yup.
I’m officially alone now.
GREAT, who am I going to party on the weekends and the summer now?
Forever fucking alone. God. fml.
remember there is always a point for everything :) i know I don't know your situation but just take this saying into consideration. "Things have to get worst, before they get any better." Also if you need someone to talk to or you just need someone I m here ok (: Just checking up on you..
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it is ok that you vent :) I mean idk about your other followers but I feel really bad when I can't help. if there is anyway I can help you out let me know ok...
[: Mmk. Thank you.
I’m frustrated as fuck. I’m mad, upset, dead, hurt, everything. I let out all the anger.
Then, it comes to seeing your name. I just, break down getting upset. Just upset. Crying. ..
This isn’t worth it. I mean, I tried every single fucking thing I can. Nothing’s good enough. Why the fuck am I still holding on.
Sorry followers.
Just, times like these gets me really mad and upset and frustrated and etc.
just GAH. I vent out alot on here. Sorry.
I'm just honestly tired of shit.
I’m tired of everything, can you stop confusing me? Stop everything that you’re trying to do. You want me to move on? Then I will, stop rushing me. A week won’t get my heart already moving on and searching faster than you think. ..I actually cared about this relationship. I cared so much, to the point where I went out of my way just to get everything okay with us two.
But hah. Whatever.
Forget it.
What’s the point of hoping.
I still fucking love you.
And it hurts just knowing I have to move on.. You’re not coming back. I just know you’re not.
May 2011
You want a guy's perspective? Ask your Dad.
- Me: Dad, how can I be sure if a guy really likes me or not?
- Dad: If a guy really likes you, he would do whatever it takes to be yours. You see, there are two kinds of "being interested". One is, when a guy likes you but has his heart open to other girls. This is the kind that isn't so serious about being serious. The other kind of "being interested" is the kind that I want a guy to be interested in you. This is the kind whose eyes are set on you, and only you. No other girls. The one that sends you those long text messages on how much he means to you, gives you goodmorning and goodnight calls telling you to have a good day and to have sweet dreams. If a guy really wants to you to be his, he wouldn't be ashamed to introduce you his friends and even better, his family. I would want you to have a guy that when he looks into my daughter's eyes, he feels like he doesn't belong anywhere else but your heart.
