I feel empty. I feel alone.. And at the same time I just want to talk to you and make everything better again.. But I can’t, I can’t just go back to you and let things go down the same way over and over and over again.. I’m tired. I’m so emotionally tired and yet a part of me still wants to be with you, but for what reason though? Is it the way you make me feel when we’re happy at some points or is it the way you make me feel guilty for expressing my certain views on certain things.. Is me missing you the happy memories we use to have or is it really you when you’re upset with me over my “expectations” .
You made me the happiest person on earth but yet there was many times where you made me hate my life because of our small fights. I understand I was able to do it for a long time but after so long of suffering and telling myself that we’ll get better or convincing my heart that we’re getting there… I couldn’t do it anymore.. I couldn’t just keep telling myself that we’ll be better in the future when there’s so many things from the past being held above us and we can’t let any of it go no matter how long ago it was…
I miss you. I miss kissing you, I miss holding you, I miss staring at you. But God has a different path for you and it’s not with me. It hurts the most to let you go, but God wants us both to focus on Him. And that’s what I’m going to follow.
That’s my girlcutest shit ever. (via x-erp)