Just laying here… Thinking… How I fell so deeply in love… I fell so hard… I’ve never been so happy in my life… But these expectations we had for eachother just grew bigger and bigger making it basically impossible to even be happy with the small things we do for eachother…
Does that still make me special… Am I still the right person… I’ve basically hit the bottom realizing that I’m not the person to make you happy anymore… My constant mistakes just doesn’t get anywhere anymore…
I don’t deserve you. I never did… Would it be better if I left… Maybe you’d be happier without me…Less stressed… Less sadness… Maybe you’d find someone that’s even better out there.. I’m never there when you need someone anymore…
After all the fights we’ve been through… I just feel like we’ll never get through this one… One side of me is hurting me to keep staying strong, but the other side just keeps telling me that we’ll never get through this one… This might be our last one…….
Sigh… What do I do..
Find someone who isn’t afraid to admit that they miss you. Someone who knows that you’re not perfect, but treats you as if you are. Someone who’s biggest fear is losing you. Someone who says I love you and means it. Someone who gives their heart completely.
You all are so sweet to take the time to message me and tell me that everything will be okay and that you all are here for me, thank you all so much it really does mean so much to me. But for now, I think I’ll just try to take out this feeling for myself. I don’t want to be a burden to anyone, and this might be the best way to get rid of my sadness.
You guys are still the best <3
Am I still right for you… Or are you just forcing yourself to keep thinking that I’m the one for you…
I don’t feel like I’m the one anymore. I’m not the one to constantly keep you smiling anymore, i’m not the one to keep you happy anymore.. I’m just another person to you… I’m not that special person anymore..
I can’t sleep… This constant over thinking. This constant crying. This everything that’s bringing me down… It won’t go away…
sit there rereading a sentence or something someone sent you? Something that hurt you so bad and stabbed you in the heart but you still just sat there rereading it about 50 times?
Sigh… What am I doing…
ynahaha asked: Stay strong Jeanelle (: I haven't seen my boyfriend for seven months now and when I saw your relationship, it gave me hope and inspiration. There's always going to be a love that's worth fighting for and if He wills, God's going to help you guys fight that fight with you. Someday it's all going to be worth it. Proverbs 13:12. :) <3
Thank you ):